Lonely

You never know how truly alone you are until you look at the coming weekend and realize that while all of your friends will be at Bayou Country Superfest you will be dog sitting for your dad's girlfriend. Oh! And by the way, your dad & his girlfriend are going too. Yea. So you will be at home all alone. My brother-in-law said something a while ago and it's been going through my head all day long. He said that the reason I don't have anyone special in my life is because I don't put myself out there. And he's right. I don't. But how can I? I'm not 21 so I can't go to a bar or a club and meet someone. I don't know anyone at my new college and I work in a place where criminals are brought in and out. And to top it off, I'm always going out of town to visit my grandparents so if I were to find someone it's not like we could really spend time together between work and school. My other problem is I get bored too fast. I can't talk to a guy for a week and be bored of him before the second week even begins. I'm very picky when it comes to guys and relationships. Also I guess it's because I'm afraid to get hurt, but can you blame me? My dad. Heated on my mom and I saw what that did to her first hand. I don't want that happening to me. Ever. Signed, Afraid to Get Out There!